Go change and stop whining

If you don't like where you are now, go change it.

you're not a tree!

Pretend,Pretending,Pretender

im pretending
you're pretending
we're all pretending

i pretend to look strong
i fight off the loneliness and keep my insanity with pretending
wearing all those masks really helps me.

I dont think its a problem, because
we're all a pretender anyway

Sleeping in

i had the strangest dream last night, everything was exactly how it seemed.

there was never any mystery, or who shot john F. kennedy. he's just someone who need to prove something.

dont wake me up, i plan on sleeping in :)

little wonders

Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you

In the end

We will only just remember how it feels

These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you

All of my regret
Will wash away somehow

But I cannot forget the way I feel right now

God, let me forgive and forget =)

what I write this for

I write to remind me about:

- something that i've finally burried and forget

- something that i've ever had

- something big that affects my life at that time

and after all, to remind me that finally everything will be just another story at the end.

someday, i will just laugh about everything ive ever written here :).

emptiness

My cool preceptor, aik han told me about the concept of emptiness budhism. Everything in our life actually is meaningless. There would be a mean in what you did because you give some meanings on it,it could be negative or positive meaning.so, if you can't be happy with ur life, the problem is not in your life but its in yourself. You have to put positive meaning on your mind,body,and life. cool right? I agree with him :)

I aint going back, I'm moving forward :)

Shit happens, right? Bahkan waktu kita gak lagi pengen boker hehehehe... But you gotta flush it anyway. Dalam hidup banyak hal terjadi tak seperti yang kita inginkan. Dalam hidup banyak hal tidak berakhir seperti yang kita harapkan. Ia seringkali menjungkirbalikkan kita, ke puncak awan tertinggi, ke dasar jurang terdalam. Ia acapkali mengombang-ambingkan kita, antara banyak pilihan sulit, antara banyak keputusan penting, antara banyak situasi pelik. But in the end, it’s always the best. Always.

after sunrise and before sunset

Those two are a really good movies! For me, this movie is the most romantic movie I've ever watched. The scene, its backsound, its location (europe), their dialogues, everything is such a perfect romantic combination.

I think its not such a cliche drama with happy ending, but its kinda feel like reality. They just can't be together, that's it. They love each other, but fate can't let them to be a couple. It does need more than love to be togeher.and in the end, everything had move, they have their own life. It seems love isn't should be having each other. That's life :)

Cheers

its true :)

It needs more than love to make a relationship works, even for a common enemy.

FILM :)

Film itu sumber pelajaran yang sangat penting sebenarnya, namun dengan banyak hanya jika. Semua film selalu ada moral yang dapat dipetik, tergantung bagaimana kita menangkap film dan tentu saja film sarat moral bukan film sex dan having fun teenager, walau menurut saya film seperti itu ttp bisa didapat moralnya,hanya saja sangat sedikit mungkin.mnurut saya,film sarat moral ya film-film festival,keluarga,dsb. Film box office dengan efek luar biasa belum tentu banyak moralnya, namun kita bisa belajar mgkn dr segi visual dan efeknya.

Film sangat penuh pelajaran bagi saya pecinta film, apapun itu. Kondisi masyarakat negara tersebut, pemandangan, beautiful dialogue, how they dressed, everything :).so,make sure you love to watch movie. But, do pick a good one :D

YELOO JAKARTA!

Finally , this semester finally over.
Today I'm gonna back to my lovely homietown-jakarta uyeaaah!
I realize, I have to restructuring my mind,my heart. I don't like what I am now.
Please,stop being too dramatic. Honestly, I hate myself now. I'm so weak and poor, like a widow need of love. I want my stone-heart back!I know I need a lot of time to flashback,think, open my eyes, and realize. And that's why I really need you,jakarta!

Okay then, wish me luck to restructur and recover to back to the-old-me :D

love+beda = ?

Nonton 3 hati dua dunia 1 cinta bikin gw mikir lagi, betapa cinta segitu naif dan butanya. Dulu gw mikir ya udah sih perbedaan gkakan bisa ngalangin cinta. Tapi, sekarang gw sadar betapa gw sangat naif. Karena buktinya emg susah banget ngejalanin itu dengan semua halangan dan tantangan. Cinta bisa kita dapatkan dari banyak orang, kalo bisa dapet yg lebih mudah dengan orang lain, saya memilih untuk gkmau susah dengan yg berbeda. Pengalaman aja sih, bukan untuk disesali. Paling tidak saya bsa membuktikan dan merasakan kenaifan itu sendiri. Kalo cinta buta sih sudah berkali-kali saya ngerasain. Hehe. Bagi yang sedang melakukan hubungan beda agama atau yang sudah sukses menjalankannya semangat ya, saya gk menentang masalah beda agama dlm suatu agama. Hanya saja, ya memang lebih baik bila agamanya sama, karena itu adalah sebuah pandangan dan pegangan hidup. Mempertahankan dan menjalankan hubungan yang seagama saja susah, apalg yang beda agama. Saya yakin cinta tidak memperdulikan perbedaan, tapi realita perduli dan perlu diingat dalam realita, bukan cuma rasa cinta atau sayang aja yang dibutuhin. Buat apa kita bahagia, kalo banyak yg terluka ?

God bless you all :)

long-life-long-learner

I realize that HIDUP MASIHH PANJAAAAAAAAANG! selama ini saya terpaku dengan comfort zone saja. Mau lulus, nikah, pny anak ,dll.pokoknya hidup yang normal. padahal ya, masa iya gw mau langsung settle my life and just doing nothing for myself.

I have something more to do before settle my life in one place with the right person. masih ada beban sosial dan kepuasan untuk diri gw yang harus dipenuhi. semangaaat!

STOP

I'm trying too much,HELP! give me a reason to leave ...

PENAT

Bayangin ujian semuanya apalan mati yang bejibun
bayangin harus belajar tiap hari sampe tengah malem
bayangin ujian + kuliah +praktikum
bayangin ujiannya tetep aja gakbisa ngerjain
BAYANGIN BAYANGIN!

Dukacita

"agama seharusnya menjadi sarana untuk mendekatkan diri pada Tuhan dan mengasihi sesama bukan menjadi alat yang diatasnamakan untuk membunuh."

Kembali suatu ormas yang mengatasnamakan sebuah agama menyerang suatu kelompok agama yang mereka anggap sesat. Kembali terlihat bagaimana kebebasan di negara ini hanya sebuah umbaran belaka tanpa ada tindakan nyata dari para penggerak pemerintahan dan alat-alatnya. Idealisme menurut saya sangat sulit dipertahankan di negara seperti ini, di negara dimana kebebasan tidak dilindungi dan selalu dipertanyakan. 

Orang-orang geram dan kesal, tp tdk bisa berbuat banyak. jangan heran terjadi erosi nasionalisme warga negara ini. saya pun ingin kabur dari negara dengan pengurus yg luar biasa bobrok ini. 

semoga para korban kekerasan bisa menjadi suatu titik awal terjadinya revolusi dimana kebebasan beragama benar-benar terjamin dan para ormas bejat tersebut benar dibubarkan hingga akarnya. 

QuestionQuestion

someone  : what is the most thing that you're afraid happen to your life? 

me            : losing my passion and forgetting all my dreams

Unsatisfied

when i got what i want, the passion is just go away. its just never feel enough